9/26/03

Random outbursts are Good

Have you ever met someone who feels like an old friend? Popcorn ceilings are driving me nuts, cerebral terrain, peoples names and faces, The idea of cleaning a pool bottom could be fun in the right company, never enough time in the evening to make a connection to anything but this damn ceiling that haunts me, it seems to be the only thing that is constant in my ever so spinning world, a world wide conspiracy of styrofoam peanut manufacturers committed to getting me committed, I know the the ceiling is a Rorschach test and i am a steady d-. I stare at it when i can't sleep, which seems all to often, its not like when i am at home where i can do all kinds of things keep all these newly sober brain cells busy, I used to drink to keep my head from working too hard on the simple things that we all take for granted, like what would happen if the world just stopped spinning, would the inertia of all this mass of spinning dirt just fall apart? Would this La quinta go smashing into the Denny's next to it? Someone once told me that La quinta is spanish for next to Denny's, but if the world was no longer spinning would Denny's and La quinta be heading apart from each other and everything else at the same rate as the rest of the universe, the warm glow of the hot griddle would be surpassed by the red shift of light moving away from us and everything. Rufus Wainwright's new album is great. If the album was a color it would be purple, yeah purple. I think I have finally figured out why it's a broken heart, because after it is broken for the first time, you can never give it away to anyone as a whole, just random parts, i think, i still want to be an idealist, why is it idealist, like an IDEA and a List, a list of ideas, not exactly what webster's says it is, what the hell do they know, I want words to mean what i want them to mean, like the word yo, yo has so many possibilities, yo as a greeting, used in a sentence "yo dog what's happenin?" as an exclamation " what the hell are you doing yo?" much like the word smurf but with more street value, a street in suburbia, but a street nonetheless.

C.D.

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